Blogging from my Blackberry… Anyway, blogging from my phone is definately a challenge. But well, I’m going to bid byebye to tumblr soon and well, no more entries in future but only pictures and videos and songs that’s all. Partly because I had found another own personal diary of mine and till now, no ones knows about it. I just wants to stay as private as possible in future. In such a modern technology, rumours tend to be spread because of many misused of our new high technology. Eg: facebook and online blogging… Blogging is like a diary. You have this freedom to write about anything that you wants it to but you will never know, the closest person to you might even betray you for some other reasons. Why? Out of jealously or perhaps they find it interesting to do such an act. Anyway, a little about me… Yeah, I’m not attached even Mel seem to want me back into his life. I can’t bring myself to love him once again. I’m glad that he still cares and love me like what he use to in the past. We just sort things out and felt that we should just remain as buddies instead. Reason being, I can’t bring myself to such a jet lag relationship anymore. He’s going back soon and this decision have to be decide soon if not, it will only turn out to be a drag to the both of us. I will be the one suffering in the end and I do not wish for this to happen. I’m happy with my own freedom life right now and I’m glad I’ve really great friends around. Eg: carol, joce and xinhui. They are they only persons who truly understand me. Right now, I just wants to focus on my work and to save up more for my degree studies next year. I’m just not ready for another relationship. Wanna stay single for now… =)
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I’m confused with the choice that I had chosen. Maybe it’s best for me to really reflect what I really wants out of it.
Mr M, Held my hands and told me that he still loves me and wants me back. I was touched by his words but somehow or somewhere, something is pulling me back telling me that I should just really let him go. And I guess, my sixth sense was right about it. Mr M, till not can’t decide his choice and I’m just too disappointed in him. Perhaps we should just remain as friends for now.
However, the day when he held my hands, I felt nothing but a tad of disappointment. I was hoping that it would be someone elses hands instead. And that someone elses hand is non other than Mr W. But on the other hand, I’m just too afraid of rejection. Sigh! I really do not knows what to do.
Why do we all have to grow up? Can’t I just stay like what I was when I was much much younger whereby, I do not have to worry for so much matters and life in future. Eg: Responsibilties and choosing a right partner to start another new cycle of my life. A big SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!